A letter from Aug 19, 2024

it will get better, no matter what happens i know it will get better and i will feel whole again. (listen to red leaves falling) you are a good person and you know deep down what is right, let fate bring what you need. YOU WILL BE OKAY!!! even if it doesn’t feel like it right now love is real and there are people out there who want to know you, you are not a bad person and what happened to you was not your fault nor did you deserve it. you are talented and one day you will be able to look back and be grateful that you were able to know such a wonderful soul and the joy he brought! even if the last few months weren’t joyful joy is out there!! she is waiting for you. you can do better you can always do better. listen to what you know and learn to love the world again. not everything is inherently evil and you will find goodness in mundane things again. you are full of love and life and hope and you will keep going no matter what. love is real, you are full of it. you love your friends and your mum and your sister and music and dancing and singing and skirts and dresses and green and pink and snow and the midsummer heat. you will fall in love again and your bones will eventually stop aching. you are not a bad person and you are more than enough. people don’t realise when there is a good, beautiful thing infront of them. you are your own person and you refuse to be manic pixie dream girlied!! tonight the moon is as bright as it ever will be and the boy i knew is dead. i hope this feeling has passed by the time you read this and you can think without thinking of him. you are more loved than you will ever know and the memories will fade eventually. you are worth it. you are the universe in its purest form