A letter from June 9th, 2020

Dear FutureMe, Hi me I’m currently 13years old you have a low self of steam you always compare yourself to others you go to bed and cry for hours hopefully the pain with suddenly stop no one hurt you much more than yourself , you just wanted to feel loved by others you wanted to fit in you want to be accepted by others and you accepted the fact you won’t find your partner in your life but you didn’t realize that your partner is yourself you feel worthless you self harm yourself once and stopped you want to reach out for help but your gonna call yourself weak you hate yourself you don’t like the body your in your just a mind conturing this body who are you? I really don’t think you will be here after 5y but that doesn’t mean I won’t try you have been through a lot your thoughts are like bullets that goes through you and those thoughts that won’t shut down those words people say that keeps you up those people who left you drowning in your thought if those people truly loved you why would they leave you i know it’s not there choice to leave they had to and your grades are going down hill and your parents they want you to get higher grades just like yours brothers so you could grow up and get a job they don’t care about your emotions why do you seem emotionless even tho your the one with the most emotions it’s like the tunnel end of the hole is the train coming at you Lol , I hope your alive and even if your not I hope the pain ends. I hope you live out of your country that your currently stuck in please be kind to yourself you have been through a lot